Stumbling Over and Over

Many people have gathered that I’ve been away from my computer and from recreational writing for the longest interval ever (since a daughter set me up with this fortuitously idiot-proof blog).

I’ll begin at the end.

I moved.

My brother and I did a final walk-through of the darkened, empty house where my husband Jim and I reared four Lake Woebegonian children.  (That verb’s for you, dear Aunt Judy.)

We moved into this sturdy home–Jim’s dream house, with its own pond, into which one of our toddlers plunked a plump hand during his first visit and lifted out a perch, which he promptly returned to its own home–on a humid October Saturday, when gold leaves clumped underfoot and New Hampshire mosquitoes still flourished.

There were five of us then.

Jim and I brought our three pre-schoolers to this house.  The new part of the house was added in 1805.  There was no dissuading Jim once he saw the home and the land, which burst with fruit trees and berries, neon lime-yellow quince the size of footballs, asparagus stalks with the circumference of silver dollars, and sparkling water graced with at least two magnificent swans.

As Uncle Randy would say at Jim’s service, “The Glennon family was home” once Jim saw this house.

We added sunny baby Suzannah the following winter, and became a family of six.

There are five of us again now.

This time much of the move took place on an uncharacteristically muggy October Saturday.  The leaves seem to have turned brown early this year, and are again sodden.  The mosquitoes remain out trolling for blood, despite one hard frost: enormous innocuous males lumber by, while tiny females stealthily come at us from the periphery and we feel the rise of scarlet welts only after it is too late to swat the little devils away.  They give no warning.

Moving has given rise to more emotions than I can convey.

But back to the beginning and the end of this move.

I stumbled upon two things during my last once-over, one in the attic and one in the ancient barn where Jim kept mysterious tools and gadgets, panels of wood, and seemingly endless unopened boxes and bags of hardware and parts for projects he never had a chance to finish.

First, I swept up a patch of discarded flotsam in a dark corner of the attic.  A white sheet was face-down, and I picked it up and turned it over.

Breathe in, breathe out.

I have no idea how it came to be there, alone and underfoot, yet somehow unscathed.  It is a photograph Jim took and printed  himself from a strip of film when we were teenagers in college.  On the back, in his handwriting, is only a bare notation of the exposure: “7 sec.”

The photograph is in black and white.  It is of a winding wood-slatted path through a salt marsh, likely taken in summer on the South Shore in Massachusetts.

From the angle where Jim stood, no doubt surrounded by buzzing mosquitoes, the path resembles the outline of a seagull in flight.  The path seems to disappear into tall grass in a delicate inverted “V” in the distance, although clearly the path continues on.

At the bottom, as if caressed by the seagull’s left wing, are five distinct shadows.  They are cast by clusters of tall marsh grass in afternoon sun and peak at steadily increasing heights as they lean toward the unseen photographer.

Of course I took the photograph with me.  I will find the right place for it wherever we go.  

Hours later I left the house for the final time, with a final load of family belongings.  I went back up to the top of the barn.

Something caused me to poke my head between two of the broad shelves, where I saw a white box that had slid towards the wall and was difficult to see.  I opened the box and quickly closed it and tucked it under my uninjured arm (we’ll get to that moving story later, as we go back in time).

It was filled with baseballs, from Jim’s Little League coaching days with our sons and their classmates.

The first person I met in my new neighborhood the following morning somehow already knew my name.  It turned out we had met before.

She remembered me from Little League; her son was on one of the teams Jim coached.  And she said she was sorry; she had read his obituary, and he was a wonderful man.

I am always glad to know he is remembered.

Author: Stephanie

In her spare time, Stephanie works full-time, and then some, as an attorney. She has published articles and delivered talks in arcane fields like forensic evidentiary issues, jury instructions, and expert scientific witness preparation. She attended law school near the the banks of the Charles River and loves that dirty water; she will always think of Boston as her home. You are welcome to take a look at her Facebook author page, or follow @SMartinGlennon on Twitter and @schnitzelpond on Instagram. Bonus points for anyone who understands the Instagram handle. All content on this blog, unless otherwise attributed, is (c) 2012-2023 by Stephanie M. Glennon and should not be reproduced (in any form other than re-blogging in accordance with the wee Wordpress buttons at the bottom of each post) without the express permission of the domain holder.

11 thoughts on “Stumbling Over and Over”

  1. This is a story of an ending, but it also infers a beginning. I cannot imagine the sadness you felt leaving. Jim is in your heart and mine. I think of him every day. What is that saying? Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Thinking of you….

  2. I’m so glad you’re writing again. You are on a journey, and I’m glad you are taking us with you. Welcome to your new home.

  3. I’ve missed your writing. Moving must have been very difficult as you were leaving behind a place with so many good memories, so hope you soon settle in your new house. It was great to hear you had already met one of your neighbours. Hope you didn’t give away all of your quilting things in the end; I look forward to hearing you are still able to be creative in this way.

    1. Thank you for sticking with me, Janice! And don’t worry: I brought the fabric. (I had no idea there was quite so much fabric….) I think it will be a healing sign when I can make some more quilts for people I love.

  4. What a fine omen to find the baseballs at the end of the departing and to find a baseball mom at the end of the arriving. I am praying for you and your children. I am looking forward to hearing Suze on Tuesday . . .

  5. How wonderful to find flecks of gold that give us wonderful Jim memories as you leave Jim’s work and storage spaces. Hugs to all and all those wonderful people who helped with the moving to your new space. Congratulations on an excellent job so will done by you and all your helpers!!!!

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