Resolved: I will look up.
“Resolve” originates in the Latin resolvere: to “loosen, undo, settle, fasten”–a seemingly paradoxical combination of the intensive prefix re and solvere. (The word “resolve” did not become commonly used as a noun signifying determination until at least a century later.)
Somewhat like the metaphorical thin spaces–which seem quite dense to me–I wonder how the same word can mean both becoming settled and becoming undone.
On the other hand, isn’t that also what the process of grief is? I have become undone by it, but it also has settled into me, not necessarily always for the worse. It has given me the resolve to do what I feel I must to honor Jim in this new life without him.